Dive Dive! Awoooooooga! (LJ)

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Sorry for the submarine analogy but bear with me, this might need a LJ cut in a bit.

First off, I am sorry my last few non writer's block entries have covered really really really depressing things like bad childhood memories and depression. How fun can that be to read?

SECONDLY: I am sorry I haven't made any updates that cover cheerier things.

June: I quit my job, go to my sister's SIL's wedding, read Twilight for the first time and pretty much lose my mind. Tickets have sold out for the Breaking Dawn concert series so I buy a ticket for San Diego Comic-Con 2008.

July: I learn my bosses husband has been diagnosed with cancer for the third and perhaps final time. She is swamped with personal issues and keeping her business alive and my work for her gets put on the back burner.

I go to Comic-Com with my bessie Laura, my sister Stephanie and her friend from work Athena. All 3 of them are converts to Twilight, led astray at my suggestion. Comic-Con is a combination of crushing disappointment mixed with moments of pure awesome. My sister manages to get a poster signed by Stephenie Meyer and the cast of the Twilight movie. After we leave the Con I get to meet a BGC in real life! We go to Famous Dave's and chat while eating BBQ and being insulted by the waiters. (It's a FD's gimmick) I wish I could have spent more time with Jess cause I know I wasn't as lucid as I wanted to be but I'm so glad I got to meet her!

August: I start 3 classes at FCC with some amount of trepidation. It's been under 2 full months since I quit my job and being around large groups of people is still a huge source of aggravation. I am taking English 3 (Critical Reading and Writing) English 48 (History of Am Lit from 1400-Civil War) and Edu 30 (Introduction to Education)

Sept: Not much happens

Oct: Nothing happens except I get frustrated at my Eng 3 teacher as he seems to be pushing his own political agenda instead of teaching us to think expansively.

Nov: My mother has her birthday on election day which means that as always (well in my case it never changes, in her's it does) my birthday is on Inauguration day. It is a historic event. Like I give a shit though because I am tired of having my birthday fucked with every 4 years. :( Especially since I am turning 30. Screw the president, I am having a 1/3 life crisis!!

Towards the end of November I am asked to develop a website and am able to do so http://www.arkfresno.com

Dec: I finish all my classes despite crippling anxiety that set in around the end of term. I get all B's which makes my term GPA a 3.0 which could be worse TBH as I know I was flailing in the classes requiring extensive essays.

I make myself go out and socialize with people I haven't seen in a while. They are all cordial but there is still some residual coldness that I think is linked directly to be being diagnosed bi-polar.

On Neopets I get suspended for the second time this year, the first time I called the most annoying user on the planet a Jerk while he was harassing my friends. That got me 24 hours. My second was for boobies. Yeah, I know. I'm really kinky. A regular Larry Flint of fucking Neopia. O__o Whatever.

For Christmas my sister and brother in law and my niece and nephew come to visit. I have not had so much fun in a long time. It's so fun to see them get older and develop their own personalities and interests.

For presents I got The Hunchback of Notre Dame which pretty much makes my friggin year since it's in the Disney Vault. My mom got an unwatched copy off Amazon. God Bless the internet. I also got a book on Novel writing, the movie "The Dark Knight," a coffee mug I really like, some cordial Hershey Kisses, silver coins and a necklace.

I got payed $612 dollars for the website I finished and promptly spent almost $300 on things my car needed and a $200 part my parent's car needed. I decide it's their Christmas present. I also pay a few bills and buy myself the last few things I needed for learning wire work. I am planning on trying to get a desk chair on sale after New Years.

Coming Up: I have 3 other websites I am working on. Well, no, more like 6? One for my mom, one for my church, one called [REDACTED], one called [REDACTED] and ultimately, [REDACTED] which is up but not looking so hot IMHO.

Financially I need to file a deferment on my Sally Mae loan, file my taxes for years I may have made enough to get a refund (which would be awesome and would go towards my bill from 2000) and figure out if I want to reapply for SDI. Actually, I think all I have to do is appeal but as I applied in 2005 I am unsure where to go from here. On the one hand I feel like a heel. On the other hand, I know I am not emotionally capable of being in a job where I have to face people. And if I can't make enough money being a freelance designer or jewelry maker then I HAVE to do something!

Well, that's about it. Over all I have a fairly positive outlook for 2009 and I know te things I want to work on/do. I'd like to be able to come back to my journal next week (Which would be Jan 4) and at least check off the deferment paperwork and the taxes!

Thanks for staying with me this year!