Dyed Hair, Weird Dreams (LJ)

• Mood: Dumbfounded
• Listening to: The hum of my computer

UGH!!!!!!

I keep having dreams about my brother... we are always doing something fun and then we get separated and I panic, looking for him...

I dyed my hair brown. It looks... brown. I guess I wanted it darker so I picked a colour called Espresso... News flash. It's brown. But with more highlights I guess.

I smashed the hell out of my finger but my back feels a little better after 2 trips to the chiropractor. The smashed car is STILL in the shop. Ugh. So mom and dad are using my car to go to Northridge for her appt with an MS specialist.

I plan on cleaning up my room (its not messy, just a little un-tidy from decorating) and setting the PS2 back up so I can start playing KH1... that way I can get through it before someone gets me KH2. Which probably won't happen XD

Anyhow, I got a new pair of jeans and a Chococat notebook which will be my math notebook. Also, 4.0 baybay! Dean's List! w00t!!!!!!

Freakish Clairvoyance! (LJ)

Mood: Stumped

Listening to: Points of Authority

Oh my GOD...

I got in an accident on Sunday!

It was awful! I nearly died. I was turning left and due to massive amounts of water in the road I spun out of control, was headed into oncoming traffic, took evasive action, spun sideways, missed a telephone pole by literally less than an inch and slammed into a fence!

Whee!

Ok. It sucked, I was stuck in the fence for over an hour, the car looks like crap and I hurt all over.


On the other hand, I got straight A's in all 4 classes and I know for damn sure I get to spend Christmas with my brother in law who hates my guts!

Whee!

Wait, I keep saying that.

AND!!!!!! I get a STAPLER for Christmas! I am so excited I could pee my pants! -__-

uwaaaaaah!

It Kinda Hurts (LJ)

• Mood: Emotional
• Listening to: Always on Your Side

You know how you feel ok at first. After you've been in an accident?

I mean, the crash, the shock and shaking, the urge to vomit and cry. When that all wears away you feel ok. You're alive, the insurance will pay for the damages and it's not your fault.

Then it hurts. The little aches and pains, the headaches.

I feel like that.



I had to take pictures out of my photo album because I keep crying. They are tucked safely with other photos I don't look at anymore. I just cry a lot and wonder why I am so lonely.

For Halloween I dressed up like Schrodinger's cat. And no, I wasn't wearing a box but that would have been cool. I had a murderous migraine and volunteered at church then went home to do math homework.

I did pass my last math test with 128% and nearly died as that is the first test I have ever taken (math wise) and passed with no wrong answers!

That keeps my grade steady at A+ and I am thrilled.

Flash and Web 1 are so boring I could die but we are in CSS now so at least I am spending a lot of time driving myself crazy. Freaking code. :K

Anyhow. I need to go do some math and maybe delete some more devs.

Leaving You (LJ)

• Mood: Hurt
• Listening to: Enae Volabre Mezzo
• Reading: The End
• Watching: Descendants of Darkness
• Playing: KH 1

You know who you are.

Maybe the feeling has already settled in on you.

Maybe it's coming over you now.

I just can't take it. I can't be like that. I can't do it.

I need to be me.

I love you so much it's crazy...

But I can't be yours anymore.

Gomenesai.